Everything happens for a reason…

I have strongly come to believe that everything happens for a reason. Since the last one year, various things haven’t executed as I had planned them to be. All my plans, efforts and ideas went down the drain. I had come to believe that nothing can ever go right with me and I am just miserably failing at everything.

Little did I know, something else was planned for me, I just never looked at it correctly.

Starting from my Third Year in College, I had planned for my Masters Program in Symbiosis, Pune. I had everything charted out for me, first I’ll get into the university, second to pass with good grades, third would be to join a magazine publication and become a feature writer. Did it go as per the plan? Nope. I cleared the first round of the entrance test then the second. But, somehow I was in the waiting list. I couldn’t get in. Then I went for my backup plan of applying to another College in Mumbai itself. The entrance and other tests went well and I was positive I would get it. But again, somehow I didn’t. Dumber people got in, but I couldn’t. One day after some good 2 months, I called the office and asked them about the same. The reply was shocking, “This seat number was selected, why didn’t you take admission then?” I told them that my name wasn’t in the list. They said it should’ve been, there must’ve been some mistake. And just like that, I lost that seat and with that my plan. Of course they were offering me another seat but then it was kind of late and I was disheartened.

During my Third Year, I was kind of stressed out about various things and opted for Yoga regular classes to calm myself down. Yoga happened out of nowhere, I wasn’t really a fan of yoga.

I tried my hand at a job after college, somehow even that didn’t work out and left it within a month and since I had time on my hand then, I decided to learn about Tarot Cards. I was interested about it, but never really got the opportunity to learn about it, so that happened.

My best friend and I, lost our friendship over some issues but call it destiny or what, we ended up at the same office, working together. It was difficult, but we just had to do it. Even when I left my job, things weren’t okay between us. Somehow, I was asked to come back to the office because of a client’s event and we had to share the same space again.

Now, how has any of this helped me, you may ask?

This is how everything happened for a reason:

If I would’ve gotten selected, I would’ve wasted my money, because I am not really interested in that field. It was just for the degree.
If I would’ve moved to Pune, I would’ve lost the chance of having someone that I have now.
If I wasn’t so stressed out, I would’ve never approached Yoga and Yoga Diploma would’ve never happened. I am in love with Yoga.
If I wouldn’t have left my first job, Tarot wouldn’t have happened to me and I would have never been able to call myself a ‘Tarot Card Reader’
If I wouldn’t have rejoined my last workplace, misunderstanding would’ve never been cleared or at least the truth would’ve never come out. Though our friendship has been lost, we are just friends now, but the air has been cleared.
If I wouldn’t have left my job, I would’ve never known what I really want to be and that is nowhere close to the 9-5 grind.

Everything happens for a reason, just hold on and keep swimming!


Money or Heart?

I know I shouldn’t even be asking this question, but okay, here I am at this troublesome junction and I am really confused about my next move. I am the one who always preaches to follow your heart but this time I am confused. If you know me by now, you must be knowing that I listen to everyone and ultimately do what I think is right, so that later on I don’t have anyone to blame things on. At the end of the day I know that all my decisions are solely taken by me.

Anyway, coming straight to the point, as you know I have rejoined my work place and given up on all my other plans. So the confusion here is, I am working just for the salary. I don’t enjoy the workplace, it’s a small firm and no growth is the issue. I mean, I have been working here since the last 7 months and there has been no substantial growth. The only pros can be its close to home. Instead of doing this, I could simply concentrate on my Yoga, Blog and Tarot Cards for sometime and work as a freelance just to keep the money following. Of course the freelancing has a little less pay than what I am getting right now, but I am not happy at this job, it is only for the money.

I don’t know what should I do, should continue working here because I know I’ll get monthly salaries? Or should I take some time off, experiment and follow my heart but with a little less pay?

According to my friends and family, I am stressing a lot over this, being just 22 years old, they think I need to take it easy and I have a lot of time in my hands to experiment. But on the other hand, they also suggest that I need to settle down and grow with my existing salary, basically ‘Don’t disrupt the money existing money cycle’.

I am so confused! Help!


The World runs on Money !

The rich are getting richer and the poor are getting poorer.

That’s not how things should be working. Owing to the huge friend circle that my father has and the kind of relatives that I have, it was from a very young age that I have realised the world works on money. Money is not just an item used to buy goods, it is now your status. Without a money, a person is nothing. Love, affection, friendship doesn’t care about your money? Wrong. It does care about you, but it also cares about the money that you have. If you are rich, people will bow infant of you, lick your feet, do things for you even if you aren’t worth it or you don’t have the required amount of brain, but if you don’t have enough money, people don’t really care that much, you are then on your own.

The rich people, who have the all money, the money should be extracted from them, but no, instead they are given VIP treatments for free ! They get direct entry to every damn place, they don’t have to wait in long queues, a phone call is all that they need to make, and consider it done. Whereas, poor or middle class people are the ones who have to go through all the difficulties, they fall prey to all the money-sucking-out-of-your-system-trap ! This is not done. But that’s how it is.

I love my dad, I have learnt a lot from him and I would definitely want to become like him. But there is one thing that I don’t want to do like him – work. Earlier today, he said something that got me thinking. He said, “People have achieved so much in life because they got the right education and they picked the right career, and all I did was worked my ass out to run the family business, Printing Press and while doing so, more than half of my life is over. And did we become rich? No.”

I don’t want to do that. I would never like to use this sentence for my life. Ever. I am fortunate enough that I never faced the difficulties that he faced. I went to a good school, didn’t have to pay for my own faces, we have our own house, I got everything from my parents, my every demand has been answered, they have given me the liberty to pick my own path and walk on it, I have their constant support, I was never asked to contribute to the family income, basically everything was good.

But what do I need to do in order to never use that sentence for my life? I need to work hard and fast. I can’t waste time, or laze around more. Its time to get serious and make some money. I want to give back to my family. And I will do it ! I don’t want to depend on anyone to make my wishes come true, I will be my own hero and I’ll get things done. I can do it !